I'm 101% Blessed :)

"Ku pernah punya cinta.. namun kini ku sedang suka kamu..
Cintaku dulu telah ku buang jauh.. Kini ku ingin kamu....." 
(Raffi ahmad, Jangan Bilang Tidak)

Over the years, i've fallen in love... fell out of love.. got confused... been betrayed... ran away from reality, did things i won't be proud of, refusing to face the ugly truth, got swayed and hurt time over time.... lies cut me until i become lost in my way..  holding myself together and struggle to move on... There are tons of things that i wish would have been different... but i've let go of things i couldn't change...  all i ever wanted was to be happy but happiness seems too far away at that time... and i used to ask myself, why izzit so hard for me to be happy?

And i know you've gone through the same thing.... well, i think everybody does... people say the past will shaped us for who we are in the future... We learned from all the heartbreaks and the wrong decisions that we've made... There are things that i wish i've done but i didn't and there are things that i wish i didn't do... The past had turn my heart numb... and i was ready to settle with what i already had back then... 

but it seems like God has a different plan for me... Moving on was the most hardest part for every one but that was the best decision i've ever made... because one could never be truly happy if their heart still stuck with troubles of the past.... yes, we learned from it and moved on, end of story... 

With this numb heart, i found love that i never thought i would able to feel again... the love that could put a smile on my face like the entire day.... Thus, i learned to love again... yes, the road was never this smooth at the beginning, but what we have now is more that what i've ever wanted... I never expected anything when we've just started but it seems that things just happened and without we realized, we've come this far... I feel blessed... thankful... grateful... for i never thought that i finally found the happiness that i've always dreamed for... Now that i've found it, i wanna keep it til the rest of my life.... All the time i feel like i'm drowning in this love.... and i like how it consumes me... Yes, future is uncertain, but this awesome relationship is definitely worth fighting for... 

p/s: i'll take care of u for as long as i could :)


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Perfect match???


Is there even a perfect match??? i don't think so but closer to perfect, yes.... my friend told be about how accurate the result of the compatibility between her and her soon to be ex-hubby... basically the result said they can be together but not for a long time because soon both will choose to go to a different direction...

their relationship wont work for long unless they are violating the laws of astrology... well, i'm indeed a fan of astrology because i think it's interesting but i never quite a believer... i read it just merely for fun... but after hearing the accuracy of my friend's result, i was tempted to test my own relationship....

i'm a capri girl & he's a virgo guy.... i know both capricorn and virgo posses the same earth element maybe that's why we got along very well as bestfriends for years before... eventhough we had arguments and stopped talking to each other for quite sometime, somehow destiny had brought us back together.....even closer than friends could be.... so i expected our compatibility percentage would be high.... butttttt i never thought that it would be thaaaaaatttt high... i tested and was surprise with 97% compatibility match????

p/s: so i guess miss capricorn has found her close to perfect match :)

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KL with L♡ve


We had our official super awkward 1st date in Midvalley KL.. and on the 9 march we were there once again... although we didn't get to do much in 2 days... but i'm still glad that we meet.. coz every moment that we've spent together will become a memory that i'll treasure... i've never been happier in a long time... and things never feel so real like this...

Time surely flew fast esp. when we're together... we've been in this new journey for almost 6 months now and ofcourse we did face several obstacles down the road but despite all that, the road ahead seems more clearer esp. to my once confused mind.... although one of our policy is not to make promises to one another but i have faith in him... i have faith in us... by seeing how we made an effort to make us work is soooo much better than 10 000 promises :)

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Rindu itu satu anugerah :)



Tak pernah kurasa begini

Ku menyintaimu sepenuh hatiku

Ternyata hanyalah dirimu

Yang mengerti aku sepenuh hatimu

Ku inginkan selalu terhentinya waktu

Supaya kita terus bersama

Jangan lah kau pergi tinggalkan diriku

Sendiri jauh darimu

Ku perlukan kamu inginmu selalu

Temani jalan hidupku

Ternyata hanyalah dirimu yang amat ku rindu

Ku rindu selalu

Ku inginkan selalu terhentinya waktu

Supaya kita terus bersama

P/s: Pertalian hati mengikat 2 insan.... I miss u hazk!!!!


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Every cloud has a silver lining

There's good in every bad just like there's beauty in every pain... All this while i guess i forgot to see that every cloud has a silver lining.... For all that misfortunes that has happened before, brought better tomorrow.. and how's that? Because yesterday's plans definitely not the life that i wanted for my future... yes, 2012 has been rough but at the same time it brought lifetime memories that wont be forgotten.... rather than saying my life has changed, i prefer to say i made a difference
in it...

1# Sungha Jung live fingerstyle performance (amazing young talent -definitely worth my evening ^^)

2# Trip back home with my besties (to the island we went... well, aside from shopping :p)

3# My Master's convocation ceremony (ends of my 2 year's suffering~~~~)

4# I cut my hair short after a few years having long hair (Fun to look different after a while....ngeee~~)

5# My 1st X'Mas sleepover at my sis as well as
celebration (AJK Protokol bak kata Carol... :p)

6# I learned how to swim (lessons are still in progress tho :p)

7# Celebrated both new year & my sis ckin's bday at d same time (making one of her wishes came true)

8# Registered myself for gym membership (finally~~~)

9# Attended my 1st international concert in Stadium Merdeka.... BigBang Alive tour... kyaaaa!!!!! (Best moment ever)

10# I found Love (with every ending marks a new beginning....)

So, i guess there u go.... all the new things that i tried & experience thus made a difference in my life... i guess after a neverending melodrama that i've been going on over & over again til the audience got bored to death... it's fair enough to share some sunshines after the rain even when the storm was still coming...  Well, in the end... life still gives us choices to make even when the odds are against us... moreover, happiness can be found anywhere :)

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Waking up from neverland

I owez thought sleeping is a waste of time.... especially during day time... time flew without me doing anything but having a trip to neverland instead.... but it seems like my body needed it for these past few days... the mind has been experiencing dizziness and the body just felt exhausted over nothing.. i wonder is it because i haven't been eating properly these few weeks.... sigh~~~ my fluctuating body weight has put a lot of stress on me... to the extend that it has become my top list on the thing i hate the most in life... ~.~" Even when i know i'm still awesome either way... but still.... sigh~~~~~

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2013.... a new beginning?

Morning new year....

Time sure does flew very fast & it will never be enough for one person.... 2012 was a rough year but somehow it gave me a new beginning as well... a new life for me to look forward to... although as for now i don't think i have the strenght to confidently accept 2013's challenges but starting from now... i will slowly fix the changes in my life & gain myself back...

P/s: today felt slightly better than yesterday

Xoxo

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