The Other Side Of Me

It's been a while since i've posted anything... i started this blog to share all my beautiful moments but it looks like it's filled with all my heartache moment.. sigh~~ maybe i should change the address to myheartache@blogspot.com instead  

well, these past weeks have been very hectic to me... 

>>Organized a HUGE scale event involving 100 elementary kidssss.... (seriously, KIDSSS)

>>Organizing entrepreneurship course for a group of adults... (yeah, ADULTSSSS)

>>Dealing with external organization that is overly demanding & unprofessional

>>Struggling with tons of paper worksssssss  as it is the procedure for any event

But despite all of these, as an optimist girl who's always look at the bright side of life, i learned a lot of things,,, seriously A LOT... it feels like i'm going through 2 weeks super intensive crash course of event organizing.... moreover, it was my first time for a lot of things... my first time handling kids, my first time giving talk to adults, first time of dealing with external organizations, my first time dealing with procedures... 

Just whenever i'm in distress, a little support would be nice... i need a little strength back there... hmm..  

Despite of all the stress & exhaustion, i'm proud of myself.. i'm proud of the new experience that i've gathered... :)

Having the hurt u didn't deserve is like being sentence over someone else's crime..... Happens to the good ones, those who play by the rules and always do the right things... But when people they love started to cross the boundaries, committing sins whether intentionally or not, they're the ones who pay for it... being punished for mistakes they didn't do... they got hurt so bad..

How bad?

“Why is this happening to me?, what did i do wrong?“ the questions they asked themselves over and over again since there's no answer to it and they'll start to blame themselves over their innocence for trusting too easy... And most of the times they wish it never happened... and wonder how their life would've been so much better if they weren't hurt at the first place...

They prone to get sensitive to certain song, movies, words, since the memory of it will trigger so much hurt and painful feelings.. They don't want to ever think about it but the mind just keep on replaying the conversations, the lies, the stories over and over again... and hurt over time becomes resentment.. resentment becomes anger and nightmares... and having these nightmares are just like swallowing poisons that eventually leads to self-destruction... 

They tried to comfort themselves by telling all the positive things they could and by hoping to discover answers that will help them making sense of everything that have happened.

I guess after all... forgive, forget and move on is easier said than done..

why do i blogged? simple....  because i've something to say.... and well, no one to listen... so i juz pour every single thought in the blog... it's my freedom of speech... the way i best express myself comfortably... 

Just a mere thought... why do we always hear women say something like "guys are all the same?" well, most guys i met are different but yes, proven to be the same in certain situations...

Situation 1: When they haven't got the girl

Every guy in this situation loves the hunt.... well, people say men are hunter right? they love the feeling of hunting and conquering the trophy... and at this moment, they will show their best personality ever... trying to be as gentlemen as they could to cherish the girl... giving her all of the attention in the world.. showing how deep they care for her... making the girl feels as if she's the most important person to him... 

Situation 2: When they got the girl

After love are confessed.... and they got used to be together... got to know each other better... then all the gentlemen thingy are gone... along with the attention and whatever thing they used to do to make the girl fell in love with them.... they go back to being themselves... showing their true color.... and the girl started to think... why did he changed? am i not important anymore? this is not the guy i fell in love with... and some girl... will start to find "the one they used to fall in love with a.k.a the one that used to cherish her" in some other guy.... and soon she'll see that the cycle will happen again.... exactly the same cycle,.... so she started to come into the conclusion, "men are all the same"...

we rarely heard men said something like "women are all the same" naaahhh.... we heard they said something like "women are complicated".... because they simply don't have the ability to read emotions... all women are the same in the sense that we want someone who love us unconditionally... by "love" it means someone who at least show that they care... Aren't the responsibility of men to take care of ur women? If women can take care of themselves, then what's the purpose of men in this world? Being single and alone is better that feeling alone when u're in a relationship with someone.... that's the worst feeling....