The Other Side Of Me

I know most people would agree with this statement... Even i once did... But now that i look at it again i seriously think that this is totally NOT cool and a lil bit of self-centered.. Yes, most people don't forget because they need to learned from it... But forgiving does include forgetting.. it's a package.. i mean that's y people call it forgive & forget, right? So u won't ended up bringing an old issue in a new argument in the future because u simply can't let go... 

Just like most people, i've been wronged... i've been hurt, i've been treated like shit... I used to say this thing.. i'll forgive u but i'll never forget what u ever did to me... Can u even count that as forgiving someone? naaahhh..... People always look at how they've been wronged but they never see how they hurt others whether intentionally or unintentionally.... We've heard some cliche words such as Nobody's perfect, everyone makes mistakes bla..bla..bla... unknowingly to us, we hurt other people too... means we have our share in whatever damage it is... I'm not perfect & i can be difficult... i may NOT intentionally hurt others but i can't help it if people misunderstood me... So yes, i take it as my fault.. I forgive & forget but whether i still want them in my life, that's another story... For sure, i never want to remember any of the "sweet mistakes" idiots have done in my life... To all those people who've wronged me before, u're officially forgiven thus forgotten err, do i know u? 

P/s: move on peeps! Don't live in the mistakes of others... 
Forgetting is a favour u do for YOURSELF not for other people

Ever asked a kid a question and they give a very simple answer? because that's how simple they see the world works.. we always thought that as we grow up, going through the ups & downs thus learning all the life lessons from the stupid mistakes that we made, we'll be sooo careful with our actions in the future but at the same time, as we became "wiser" our perspectives on life will be different, hence.... complicated... but the way that i see it, it goes to the very basic thing that we knew when we're little... like...

Don't Lie, Be Honest

Don't make promises u can't keep

Earn ur respect & trust because it's not given

Do things that'll make u happy

Love sincerely

I don't know about others but these were the values that i've learned since i was very little.. All the good things that everyone knows and expect to get but sometimes refuse to give because they're too scared of being disappointed.. well insecurities won't solve anything, it'll only going to make it worst than it is.. By that, one has to have faith.... belief.. that what's meant to be will always be <3

P/s: Fairy tale do exists in the real world :) 

Been busy with work lately... and somehow i just miss having moments of conversations where you can just hang out and talk about anything and got caught up with it until u don't realize how much time has passed... It's like, there's just no end to it... One thing leads to another....  Maybe because i've barely talk to anyone recently... Everyone are just too faraway... and it's depressing... i'm not a talkative person... i'll only have too much to talk with people i enjoy talking to... those people who i can feel connected.. whom i can relate to... and it's more depressing when u're stressed out, u need to let it out badly but there's just no one u feel comfortable to say so u ended up buried it inside that little heart....    

P/s: S.O.S - needing distraction

I never take my life seriously... i found that the lesser i care about life, the lesser i'll get hurt.. Things like hope, faith, promises scares the hell out of me.... I used to say that my life is more like a roller coaster... Even before i fully understood the situation that i was in, somehow i've been pushed into something else.... Every choice i made will lead me somewhere new.... new chapter, new life... but i found that life without faith, hope & promises are the same like living without a purpose... because despite of all the not-so-beautiful things that happened in our lives, these three things are the one that'll keep us moving forward... I don't know what might come my way in the future because future is a mystery, at this moment last year, i never thought that i'll be sitting here updating this blog from an office 500 miles from where i was...

Still.... i don't know about faith, hope & promises but whatever storms that might come my way, 

Break me or shake me... I might fall down but i'll rise again... 

Because i'm a fighter &

I fight to be happy..

P/s: Life is like a roller coaster, 

we might not be forever at the top but when where at the bottom,

 it'll not last forever as well...

One of Sophia Loren famous quote would be "Beauty is how you feel inside & it reflects in your eyes. It's not something physical" Yes, looks would have a very significant impact on first impression but it's the personality a.k.a attitude will make people fall in love & stay in love. Even gorgeous women get dumped everyday (like Nora Danish, Erra Fazira, Norish Karman bla..bla..bla...).

Yet, beauty is always an issue to every woman... we can say that it's inseparable... Every woman desires to be beautiful in their very own way as men have define women's beauty in so many ways according to every english vocabulary they know exists which relates to good looks (cute, beautiful, hot, sexy, gorgeous, pretty, charismatic, sophisticated and the list goes on). So over centuries women tried hard to improved their looks even to the extend of going under the knife. They're willing to go for it even if they know that "Beauty is pain".

Not that i want to be judgy but working so hard to improve ur beauty for the sake of men is sooo wrong for me.... Women should do it for themselves, not for other people... that's what i understand when Sophia Loren mentioned "beauty is how you feel inside," U should feel beautiful from ur point of view... wear whatever u think comfortable for u, style ur hair according to what u like & wear make up as heavy as u want (not to the extend of looking like a traffic lite tho ~_~") 

YOU define yourself, NOT other people....  even if he said ur look hideous with that redish lipstick u juz bought, use it anyway if u think u look good in it.... other people's opinion doesn't count...  one man's "ugly" is another man's "beauty" so it's how u think of yourself that matters... eat clean for urself, train dirty for urself, style ur hair for urself, buy new clothes for ur self, wear make up for urself.... to satisfy urself NOT to satisfy others... So when u invest for urself, u're worth every penny... and when others' opinion won't matter anymore, u'll even love ur flaws.. eventually u'll love urself as a whole, a package..

Women shouldn't compare themselves among one another because each will have their own values & qualities... u're the best deal to any men out there... Take it or leave it... What happen when he chose to "leave"? When u love urself, u wouldn't want someone who doesn't want u, doesn't value u, doesn't appreciate u... u would be happy to see them go simply because u don't want to  be stuck to someone who doesn't deserve u... 

P/s: My greatest talent is being clumsy (got my phone fly more than the man of steel does & eventually cracked), i wear thick eyeliner because i'm unrecognizable without it (natural beauty & me don't get along together), i hate doing house chores (i always want a maid), my stubbornness is to the point of infinity (argue with me & u'll be perfectly irritated) , i'm egois since i'm a capri girl (can't help it, it's the zodiac's fault), i'm overload with chubbiness everywhere (losing weight is my new year's resolution, EVERY year for the past 5 years) , i'm juz an average looking girl, but despite all of these - I Love My Self 

Sources: Sherry Argov, Sohia Loren