It was just my imagination....
Funny how our feelings can play tricks with our mind.... making us see things that weren't there... jumping into conclusions and sometimes can lead us to make decisions that we might regret in the future becoz no matter how smart we are but as human, sometimes we tend to lose to our emotions.... especially when we're emotionally unstable... confusions and not to understand our own emotions tells us that we're in no state of making any decision especially if it involves relationship with others since what we felt might not be real.... coz it involves their emotions as well... so... things might turn the opposite way... We thought they're the perfect person ever and they heal our heart during that fantasy stage of ours.... and when we're healed we started to see no one is perfect.... everybody has their own flaws.... suddenly we woke up and ended up ruining theirs.... since the reality is not as beautiful as we see it is..... we looked back and see how foolish we were.... rebound can be beautiful & easy....just find someone who could distract u and take away all the misery.... but it has serious damaging effects..... it seems not worth it in the end...... such a waste of relationship.... i was lucky to have good friends who stayed with me & gave me strength to carry on as well as clarity that i was looking for when i was in need... yes, i was confused.... i didn't know what i want.... i didn't really know what i felt...... one minute i was full of emotion.... the next day, i didn't really feel anything...... i was clueless.... couldn't find the answers to my questions.... why is that? becoz i was unstable inside..... i was hurt... i was looking for distraction all the way.... but time heals everything..... though it's not easy... but in the end i was glad that i took the right way to mend everything inside... it's a long way... took a long time... but it was worth it..... i found my clarity... found my answers.. see through my fantasies & found my reality..... the thing i thought was perfect was only in my imagination..... i mean what was i thinking??? the only thing that's real is the one in front of my eyes all the time...... It's YOU ^^
