What?? It's 2012 ALREADY??? Gosh... i might have not realize how fast the time has flies due to the hectic dual life i've been living (an employee & a student)..... Usually when new years come, we'll find a new resolution & set goals to achieve it... It's good to always want to improve ourselves, right? But before that, who even bother to look back at 2011's resolutions and recall back whether it is achieved or not.... Funny thing is, some of us might not even remember it.... some do listed it somewhere but ended up not knowing where the piece of paper gone to.... hahaha.... I did those sometimes..... So let's recall back what happened in 2011 fo me....
1. Relationship - my relationship was always in a turmoil.... always become a great challenge to me.... I might have the power of the mind to decide what's good and what's bad for me.. But when it involves emotional thingy, i become clueless...... I was seriously clueless of my destiny... Early this year, it was a dead end for both of us.... I really thought it was the end... i was up to the stage where i wanted to really close my heart to anyone because i was done believing in love..... I guess it was already too much for my heart to handle....We were in a break for months..... and during those separations i guess we found space to heal our hearts.... and naturally when we're starting off as friends, our relationship naturally gets better without both of us even trying too hard on it... I guess, when everything is destroyed, we wanted to build it back.... so the trust, respect, appreciating each other comes naturally..... and to my surprised, things were getting better & better between us.... and through the end of the year, we were starting off again.... I never ever thought that this relationship could be in this stage where i never felt more confident that it can be pull through as previously... I used to believe that we might not meant to be together because no matter how much i put my effort on this relationship... in the end everything just fell apart.... but now i felt ironic, no matter how much we were apart... destiny just has its way to bring us back together..... how did it turned this way? Now i started to feel that no one else meant for me but the one who knows me 101%... and loving me even though with my 101 weaknesses...:) and i'm grateful for it...
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| Isnany & Farah |
2. Friendship - Another thing that i'm grateful for 2011, when relationship went apart, i found friendship.... honest relationships that for me a hardest to find in today's world... i'm glad because my colleagues are my besties where i can share mostly everything and they don't judge me even if i can be quite silly sometimes.... I love new friendship that comes to me this year.... i love old friendship that was faraway but always there for me and makes me feel she's near..... These friends are just like angels who watched over my back and will always got my backs whenever i'm in need..... These are my families :)
3. Mummy went to Kuching - Finally, this year..... My mom went to Kuching... she had mentioned for so many times in the past but finally she made it this year... Daddy couldn't come coz had something to handle in KK..... Funny thing, daddy was jealous.... :p....
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| Family Dinner for both :) |
3. Studies - hectic but it's coming to the end..... just another semester more.... If everything go according to plan, i'll be graduating in this 2012..... God knows how much i was waiting for that moment..... Let's pray for it... aminnn :)
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30 mins before event started.... 30 mins after? Full house....
there were not enough seat... But since it's a battle..
who care about sitting down? :p |
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| Saturday Nite Showdown, 3rd December 2011 |
5. Shooting experience - The first ever time in my life holding a real gun & shooting with real bullet... it was very heavy & i was very nervous due to the explosive sound which is only next to my ear..... i did not even manage to hit any target given but it was super fun experience that i won't forget in my life.
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| Nervous Breakdown firing Benelli semi-auto.... |
6. Hiking experience - i guess, i've experience a lot of thing in 2011.... things that i didn't even plan... but it happen... i'm this kind of person who like to step out of my comfort zone and experience life around me.... i like to breakaway..... Santubong was a real challenge not only to my unfit body but as well as my weak mind.... When i was on my way climbing down, someone asked me.... would u want to hike again? Santubong? my answer, definitely NO... i said it will be my first & LAST!!! i'll never want to go through it again.... But now when i think about it again... i think i just changed my mind... I want to do it again.... I want to challenge my self again..... So wait for me Santubong.. i'll definitely come back in 2012 :)
7. Healthy living - Previously i never took my health seriously up to 2011.... i was seriously stress out by everything... Noticing my body easily got tired i realized i was seriously unfit... So i decided to jog everyday minus weekends.... or at least 3 times a week.... I never realized running was fun.. i got addicted to it.... it feels really great after exercising... feels healthy... not only body but as well as mind.... it feels as the stress went away.... it was just like pressing "resfresh" button on our laptop...... Since after Raya was rainy season, i had to put on hold to my exercising routine.... More bad news when i put on weight during Raya... so i went on diet... eating foods that is healthy and reducing those that is bad for health.... and i manage to lose about 4 Kg ^^ who says dieting needs to go through hunger?
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| Work out session with him :) |
8. New year's eve - What can be more fun than a rock concert??? even if it's Search (i am not a fan maybe because it was not my era.. but it don't dislike them)..... I just love rock concert.. i dont know why.....Seriously, between candle light dinner & a rock concert..... I'll ditch candle light :D It was my first time seeing live performance by professional rock band.... The level of performance indeed different from other performers which i seldomly see in Jom Heboh... maybe because they are truly having fun performing on stage... Their stage presence is strong enough to capture more than 25 thousands audience.... When they're on stage, seriously i thought i was in the 80's rock kapak era with their appearance..... i love kit's 80's hair style..... :) Only in rock concert can we see this ^^
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| Amy rocking with Kit, lead guitarist.... loving kit's hair :D |
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| GempaQ.... |
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| vocalist legend..... |
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| We were here...... |
What i found most amusing is.... i never in any concert see adult both men and women in their 40's are having so much fun singing altogether and memorized every song the band is singing ^^ i think they must be reminiscing their youth :p It's nice to see many people having such a great time :)
9. Clarity - 2011 brought a lot of challenges and obstacles to me... I fell out of love... left confused... clueless bout my own emotion.... haven't had any clue of what i should do or decide.... Had never ending thoughts bout the future..... had unstable emotions.... or sometimes emotionless.... But i guess time heals everything.... and time as well tells everything and answers all my questions.... In the end of the day, i found the clarity that i was looking for..... I was really glad that everything went well.... I think in 2011 i learned a lot, experience a lot and there are none that i regret about it.... because it was a great life lesson & i'm thankful for it if it's not, then things wouldn't turn out as it is today :) 2011 started off rough, but ends peacefully ^^
10. We Got Married - Oh no!! Not me... Big misunderstanding ;p.... i'm talking about We Got Married, a Korean reality show about make belief marriage between celebrities.... I knew i was kinda late watching these kinda shows... maybe because previously i was really paranoid about marriage... maybe i think too much... i always think marriage is about great responsibility that i might not be able to carry..... A professor of mine once asked me, when am i getting married.... i answered her "i can't even take care of myself," then she said, "Then u need someone to take care of u," Sweet thought.... but still.... marriages that happened around me which are not going well making me have a lot of doubt.... getting married is once in a lifetime choice to make.... and that fact scares me.... Until..... I watched this couple Hwang Bo & my fav Kim Hyun Joong in WGM.... despite their age differences of 6 years, this couple is the most fun to watch compare to other couples...... I never thought that marriage life could be that fun and exciting..... maybe i did think too much... They don't have all the romantic marriage that people always dreamed of.... But their marriage is full of joy and laughter.... They are always being playful between one another and that is soooo sweeet.... and i've never seen wedding photos like these:
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| The look in their eyes.... ouch!! I almost believe that they really are married |
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| This is my fav!!! I want something like this can? :p |
Simple & fun.... i believe what Kim hyun joong said.. When a couple is having love & laughter... then, there would be no divorce, right? Things are complicated because we tend to think too much as i did.... human makes things complicated although we can make it simple.... I hated the fact that Kim hyun joong had to leave We Got Married due to Boys Over Flower filming schedule.... But i love the character of Yoon Ji Hoo that he potrayed & i wouldn't discover him if it isn't because Boys Over Flower.... So, i dont know.. it's a love plus hate thing.... but i love his real innocent, funny self compare to cool aka macho self in drama series...... i'm thankful for this show.... making me see marriage in a whole new perspective... opened up my mind.... opened up my eyes & the most important part.. it has opened up my heart :)
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Hyun Joong's taking care of Hwang Bo's Puppy....
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The sweetest thing that he did for his wife is singing her fav. song
& did a confession "honestly, i didn't think i was worthy of loving someone yet... even when i 1st met u
i didn't have confidence, so i was just worried.....
After the time has passed, i mush have gotten used to our precious time together...
Your faith in me as u always watch me by my side....
Saranghae....saranghae" :))
and ended it with a present, 995 self-folded paper cranes
for his wife as promised.... plus the 5 paper cranes given earlier making altogether
1000 ^^ |
I guess that's it for 2011.... and everyone of us wish for 2012 to be nicer right? I have some resolutions myself... and i couldn't wait to see what 2012 may bring..... happiness & sorrow, we've been through it all... we could face it once again.... aja2 fighting to all of us :)
