The Other Side Of Me

Today i found out shocking truth that was hard for me to digest. I thought my misery is worst but what happened to my friends makes my heart heavier... Going through a break up from 7 years relationship was hard, it feels like i'm falling apart... Feels like i'm at the weakest point in my life.. too much lies & drama... too many heartbreaks... too many chances being wasted.. there's no use regretting everything that happened.. no use of blaming him and no use of asking why? because i never want to walk the same path as him anymore... i don't want to go through what i'm going through now & i can't take another heartbreak anymore... For know, i can't help feeling sad, disappointed, upset with the another lies and betrayal... i kept saying that i regret meeting him.. but i take those words back because to think about it again, within 7 years we were together, we had fun together & i was happy being with him... There were moments of heartbreaks and betrayals but there were also moments of true happiness.... Thus, i don't regret spending 7 years with him... but those were yesterday... before he put another hole in my heart.....again.... Thus, what's left are only histories & memories of a broken heart...

I'm letting the past go... trying to move on and heal the damage of my heart.. Doesn't matter how much i love him, he will never know... i thought after the last break up there will be no more 3rd woman's issues in our relationship but i guess i was wrong.. i lost hope & when he purposely did the typical mistake he always do especially after planning about wedding, that's when i know he's definitely not the one that i want to spend forever with... i never want to spend my life in misery... no one does... apologies & promises won't make up for everything.... i'm done with him... 

My break up was hard but there are other people who's suffering much more & is going on tougher situation than me... lies can kill the heart... The truth will always be better than eating lies all the time.... All the bad things that people do will never have a beautiful ending... what were they thinking? Hurting those who loved them wholeheartedly.... Maybe people just being plain stupid... but i wish things will get better for everyone who are experiencing heartbreaks like me... Time will pass and everything will just become memories.. May all of us get our own happiness & would found the one who will appreciate us in the future :)

"Laugh when you can, apologize when you should and let go of what you can't change. Life is too short to be anything.....but happy" - Anonymous