The Other Side Of Me: 2013

Silence

Only the piano accompanies me throughout the day
The sleeping cello, Is silent and old
I think that you've made yourself perfectly clear
I understand and I know
You're not going to regret the break up

You said that you will be sad, But i don't believe it
You being with me was already in the past
I hope that he will love you more than I do
So i can force myself to leave

You want me to say it, it is very embarrassing
I never want us to part
Why do I need to replace my sadness with a smile?
I do not have this kind of talent, To accept both u & him
You don't have to worry too much, I will be fine

You've gone so far away, And I will slowly walk away
Why must I need to put up with you even for the break up?
I really do not have the talent, To be silent this fast
I decided to let u go, Because I love you so much

-Jay Chou-

p/s: why would someone leave a sincere love like this?
love is blind? or certain human are juz perfectly stupid?

10 Ways to Win a Girl’s Heart??? o.O

| at 10:40 PM

..... Here it goes, the 10 ways men think could melt a girl's heart....

Be pursuant: Pursue her without the pressure. In other words, don’t try to “front” and be cocky. Have a conversation first and show her you are interested beyond her appearance. You don’t have to come up with some crazy pickup line. You can simply say, “I want to introduce myself…” Be sincere and genuine in wanting to get to know her. I see too many good guys get intimidated by a girl’s beauty up front, but take a closer look, and find her true self. Honestly, if you can get past this, you’ll have a leg up on the other idiots out there. After all, being genuine is where you excel the most.
Be a gentleman: Girls don’t want to be treated like a queen, but they do want to be treated like a princess. She doesn’t want you to be a doormat, she wants you to be the one in charge. Open every door for her, especially the car door. Pull out her chair and allow her to sit down first when you take her on a date, and let her order first. When you are walking alongside the street, you should be the one walking closest to the street. Being a gentleman is being selfless.
Be complimentary: On our first date, I told her “You look so beautiful.” I then told her how great she looked when I saw her without makeup the night before. It was real and sincere. While she later revealed to me that she had been testing me to see if I would still like her without makeup, I simply saw a girl who didn’t have enough time because she just got done at the gym. That was incredibly sexy to me.
Be creative: You don’t have to blow your bank account to impress her. Think outside the box. I’ve been watching one of my good buds Danny Booko pursue his girl right. He took her on a hike in Malibu, CA to waterfalls and then took her to this place called M Café complete with swans. He’s also taken her to the Getty museum and the zoo, which are free. Another idea is to take her to a place like Color Me Mine, where you paint your own pottery. Putting thought and originality into a date lets her know you really care about showing her the best in life and it allows you to experience each other across various situations.
Be intentional: Invite her to parties, events, and game nights with your friends. I called Kristen every day when I finally got her number. I sent her encouraging text messages and inspirational Bible verses. I told her I wanted to be her man on our fifth date. She wasn’t ready, but she knew what I wanted. I gave her the time she needed with no stipulations, while still pursuing her intentionally. She told me she loved that.
Be proud: Speak well of her in front of other people. Hold her hand. Some dating experts recommend saying backhanded compliments, but nothing beats a genuine and sincere compliment. A backhanded compliment might work for a one-night stand, but come on, this is a poisonous ingredient in trying to form a long term relationship. Treat her just as kindly in front of friends and family as you do when you are alone.
Be attentive: Show her that you care for her and her needs. Pay attention to the small details. Girls care about the small stuff, big time. For instance, on our first date, I knew Kristen was a vegetarian, so I took her to a vegetarian restaurant called Café Gratitude. Listen to what she has to say.
Be protective: Don’t let her walk alone to her car. If she’s going on a jog or walk at night, tell her you want to go to keep her safe. If she’s going to the gas station at night, go with her. If you’re at a club and she needs to go to the restroom, take her there and wait outside the door.
Be a good listener: Ask solid open-ended questions that include “what,” “how,” and “why.” If you’re doing most of the talking, you’re not getting very far with her. Show her you care with body language and by repeating back some of what she just told you.
Be romantic: Plan ahead. What do you want your love story to be? You are the writer. When people ask where your first kiss was, you don’t want her to answer with the driveway or that you were drunk at a party. The night I kissed Kristen for the first time, I wanted it to be special. I took her to an overlook on Mulholland Drive. We stood on top of the city, and that night I was her very own Superman. It was a special moment and I ended up proposing to her there.

Source: http://goodguyswag.com

P/s: My opinion? I've seen a LOT of these guys....in Korean Drama....Lol! >_<

Hurt

| at 1:46 AM

When it hurts so bad til it's hard to breathe...

#cryingmyselftosleep

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Forgive & Forget

| at 7:43 PM

I know most people would agree with this statement... Even i once did... But now that i look at it again i seriously think that this is totally NOT cool and a lil bit of self-centered.. Yes, most people don't forget because they need to learned from it... But forgiving does include forgetting.. it's a package.. i mean that's y people call it forgive & forget, right? So u won't ended up bringing an old issue in a new argument in the future because u simply can't let go...

Just like most people, i've been wronged... i've been hurt, i've been treated like shit... I used to say this thing.. i'll forgive u but i'll never forget what u ever did to me... Can u even count that as forgiving someone? naaahhh..... People always look at how they've been wronged but they never see how they hurt others whether intentionally or unintentionally.... We've heard some cliche words such as Nobody's perfect, everyone makes mistakes bla..bla..bla... unknowingly to us, we hurt other people too... means we have our share in whatever damage it is... I'm not perfect & i can be difficult... i may NOT intentionally hurt others but i can't help it if people misunderstood me... So yes, i take it as my fault.. I forgive & forget but whether i still want them in my life, that's another story... For sure, i never want to remember any of the "sweet mistakes" idiots have done in my life... To all those people who've wronged me before, u're officially forgiven thus forgotten ~~err, do i know u?~~

P/s: move on peeps! Don't live in the mistakes of others...
Forgetting is a favour u do for YOURSELF not for other people

The point of life where i hate everything

| at 3:18 AM

Oh yes... i think i've been too stressful until i've come to that point of life where i feel like hating everything.... for me who always like to see the beautiful side of everything & finding the good side of everyone to feel this way, i know i'm totally fucked up... i hate my work, i hate my life, i hate how things turned out to be & i'm tired of comforting myself... i hate how things making me so sad til all i wanna do is to break down & cry

Simple values of humanity

| at 10:12 PM

Ever asked a kid a question and they give a very simple answer? because that's how simple they see the world works.. we always thought that as we grow up, going through the ups & downs thus learning all the life lessons from the stupid mistakes that we made, we'll be sooo careful with our actions in the future but at the same time, as we became "wiser" our perspectives on life will be different, hence.... complicated... but the way that i see it, it goes to the very basic thing that we knew when we're little... like...

Don't Lie, Be Honest

Don't make promises u can't keep

Earn ur respect & trust because it's not given

Do things that'll make u happy

Love sincerely

I don't know about others but these were the values that i've learned since i was very little.. All the good things that everyone knows and expect to get but sometimes refuse to give because they're too scared of being disappointed.. well insecurities won't solve anything, it'll only going to make it worst than it is.. By that, one has to have faith.... belief.. that what's meant to be will always be <3

P/s: Fairy tale do exists in the real world :)

Too much to tell, too little time...

| at 10:34 PM

Been busy with work lately... and somehow i just miss having moments of conversations where you can just hang out and talk about anything and got caught up with it until u don't realize how much time has passed... It's like, there's just no end to it... One thing leads to another.... Maybe because i've barely talk to anyone recently... Everyone are just too faraway... and it's depressing... i'm not a talkative person... i'll only have too much to talk with people i enjoy talking to... those people who i can feel connected.. whom i can relate to... and it's more depressing when u're stressed out, u need to let it out badly but there's just no one u feel comfortable to say so u ended up buried it inside that little heart....

P/s: S.O.S - needing distraction

Life: My ups & downs

| at 8:27 PM

I never take my life seriously... i found that the lesser i care about life, the lesser i'll get hurt.. Things like hope, faith, promises scares the hell out of me.... I used to say that my life is more like a roller coaster... Even before i fully understood the situation that i was in, somehow i've been pushed into something else.... Every choice i made will lead me somewhere new.... new chapter, new life... but i found that life without faith, hope & promises are the same like living without a purpose... because despite of all the not-so-beautiful things that happened in our lives, these three things are the one that'll keep us moving forward... I don't know what might come my way in the future because future is a mystery, at this moment last year, i never thought that i'll be sitting here updating this blog from an office 500 miles from where i was...

Still.... i don't know about faith, hope & promises but whatever storms that might come my way,

Break me or shake me... I might fall down but i'll rise again...

Because i'm a fighter &

I fight to be happy..

P/s: Life is like a roller coaster,

we might not be forever at the top but when where at the bottom,

it'll not last forever as well...

Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder

| at 5:04 PM

One of Sophia Loren famous quote would be "Beauty is how you feel inside & it reflects in your eyes. It's not something physical" Yes, looks would have a very significant impact on first impression but it's the personality a.k.a attitude will make people fall in love & stay in love. Even gorgeous women get dumped everyday ~~(like Nora Danish, Erra Fazira, Norish Karman bla..bla..bla...~~).

Yet, beauty is always an issue to every woman... we can say that it's inseparable... Every woman desires to be beautiful in their very own way as men have define women's beauty in so many ways according to every english vocabulary they know exists which relates to good looks (cute, beautiful, hot, sexy, gorgeous, pretty, charismatic, sophisticated and the list goes on). So over centuries women tried hard to improved their looks even to the extend of going under the knife. They're willing to go for it even if they know that "Beauty is pain".

Not that i want to be judgy but working so hard to improve ur beauty for the sake of men is sooo wrong for me.... Women should do it for themselves, not for other people... that's what i understand when Sophia Loren mentioned "beauty is how you feel inside," U should feel beautiful from ur point of view... wear whatever u think comfortable for u, style ur hair according to what u like & wear make up as heavy as u want (not to the extend of looking like a traffic lite tho ~_~")

YOU define yourself, NOT other people.... even if he said ur look hideous with that redish lipstick u juz bought, use it anyway if u think u look good in it.... other people's opinion doesn't count... one man's "ugly" is another man's "beauty" so it's how u think of yourself that matters... eat clean for urself, train dirty for urself, style ur hair for urself, buy new clothes for ur self, wear make up for urself.... to satisfy urself NOT to satisfy others... So when u invest for urself, u're worth every penny... and when others' opinion won't matter anymore, u'll even love ur flaws.. eventually u'll love urself as a whole, a package..

Women shouldn't compare themselves among one another because each will have their own values & qualities... u're the best deal to any men out there... Take it or leave it... What happen when he chose to "leave"? When u love urself, u wouldn't want someone who doesn't want u, doesn't value u, doesn't appreciate u... u would be happy to see them go simply because u don't want to be stuck to someone who doesn't deserve u...

P/s: My greatest talent is being clumsy ~~(got my phone fly more than the man of steel does & eventually cracked),~~ i wear thick eyeliner because i'm unrecognizable without it ~~(natural beauty & me don't get along together)~~, i hate doing house chores ~~(i always want a maid)~~, my stubbornness is to the point of infinity ~~(argue with me & u'll be perfectly irritated)~~ , i'm egois since i'm a capri girl ~~(can't help it, it's the zodiac's fault)~~, i'm overload with chubbiness everywhere ~~(losing weight is my new year's resolution, EVERY year for the past 5 years)~~ , i'm juz an average looking girl, but despite all of these - I Love My Self

Sources: Sherry Argov, Sohia Loren

Heaven on earth

| at 6:57 PM

#Repost from 2010

I think it is a wonderful feeling when two people are drawn into one another and somehow cannot escape that feeling...... That way, it feels that you belong together.... even when you're arguing with each other and felt a lil anger against one another, yet somehow you're drawn to that person.... missing and thinking of that person every single day..... and all that you want in life is being together forever..... and it doesn't matter how hard life is..... and how hard it would be... as long as you're together then everything would seems okay...... because love brings courage and strength to withstand any hardship in life...... you'll never thought of losing one another because that would be the hardest thing in your life..... simply because you complement one another..... aren't love supposed to be like this???? then why is it not like this for me???? I miss this kind of love.... true love.... that seems impossible for me to have..... :( I miss having someone who'll think of me everyday..... missing me all the time ^^ and happy as long as we're together doesn't matter how difficult life would be...

I've stumbled into things i wrote long ago in a different blog... Back in 2010... I can't remember what happened here but i still remember ever feeling this way... hearing a love song and asking myself "aren't love suppose to be this way? then why is it not like this for me?" or watching a romantic comedy series & asking the exact same question.. as if i knew it all along that i was in a wrong relationship but still force myself to "juz go with the flow".. P/s: wrong move...

But somehow i'm happy on how things turned out to be... i was waiting for a savior & life brought u to me... u're the miracle in my life.. because of u, the truest love is possible for me.. u've complete all the missing pieces in my heart... and now i felt like i've been happy too long for being in love with u.... it's everything that I've been dreaming of and for that i'm thankful..I want us forever.. Juz u & me...doesn't matter how difficult life would be... u're my courage & strength to withstand anything... because being with u is my heaven on earth :)

Ijab & Qabul

| at 12:12 PM

Juz a thing or two that i know about Ijab & Qabul :)

“Sesungguhnya, apabila seorang suami memandang
isterinya (dengan kasih & sayang) dan isterinya juga
memandang suaminya (dengan kasih & sayang), maka
Allah akan memandang keduanya dengan pandangan kasih &
sayang. Dan apabila seorang suami memegangi jemari
isterinya (dengan kasih & sayang) maka berjatuhanlah
dosa-dosa dari segala jemari keduanya” (HR. Abu Sa’id)

“Wanita-wanita yang keji adalah untuk laki-laki yang
keji, dan laki-laki yang keji adalah buat
wanita-wanita yang keji (pula), dan wanita-wanita yang
baik adalah untuk laki-laki yang baik dan laki-laki
yang baik adalah untuk wanita-wanita yang baik (pula)”
(An-Nur 26)

“Dunia ini dijadikan Allah penuh perhiasan, dan
sebaik-baik perhiasan hidup adalah isteri yang
solehah” (HR. Muslim)

“Jadilah istri yang terbaik. Sebaik-baiknya istri,
apabila dipandang suaminya menyenangkan, bila
diperintah ia taat, bila suami tidak ada, ia jaga
harta suaminya dan ia jaga kehormatan dirinya”

(Al-Hadits)

“Tidak dibenarkan manusia sujud kepada manusia, dan
kalau dibenarkan manusia sujud kepada manusia, aku akan
memerintahkan wanita sujud kepada suaminya karena
besarnya jasa (hak) suami terhadap isterinya.”

(HR. Ahmad)

“Sesungguhnya wanita seumpama tulang rusuk yang bengkok.
Bila kamu membiarkannya (bengkok) kamu memperoleh
manfaatnya dan bila kamu berusaha meluruskannya
maka kamu mematahkannya. “

(HR. Ath-Thahawi)

Seeing is Believing

| at 12:26 PM

I don't SEE a lot of it lately..... :(

MISconception about ME

Labels: None | at 12:18 PM

Along the years i notice people who doesn't know me have a different perception about who i really am... but it is more saddened when people who knows me also do misunderstood me... to say that i'm unpredictable, i don't think so.. since i'm the most naive with my emotion...and for those who should've known me better than anyone else, if u misunderstood me... yes, i will feel terribly sad... So, let me make it clear about certain stuff so that i won't get misunderstood for these reasons.

1. I'm totally allergic to those species who like to brag... a.k.a klaka up2... u don't have to brag in order to impress me... i prefer humble people a LOT more

2. I might be playful... childish.. live my life crazily BUT people do have to watch their mouth when they're talking to me... certain people juz dunno how to differentiate between jokes & manners... sigh~~~ u want others to respect u? respect urself 1st peeps....

3. High maintenance a.k.a high end - like helloooo~~~~ i do own a RM 5 shirt & it's still one of my favourite in my wardrobe.. i'll wear anything that's comfy... so for those who face a difficulty in getting me a present or such.. chill~~ because it's the thought that counts, not the price tag...

4. Gullible.... yes, i am... but only to those people i'm closed with... i'm naive because i trust these people to be true to me since i give my honesty to them... BUT i don't trust juz anyone.. only those whose have earned it... BUT once they throw it away, forget about getting it back....

5. Dwelling over the past a.k.a KLMJ - urghhhhhh~~~ i'm a loving person... once i love, i loved deeply.... but once that's gone, new love will always come... and memories will fade away... so i definitely don't do stuff like dwelling over stuff or a person that doesn't even matter anymore in my life... I forget people easily... so when i said i don't care anymore, i seriously don't... P/s: out of sight, out of mind.. there where u'll be....

6. Drama Queen - i might act like it... but i'm only half of it... i hate drama... but i love being a queen ^^ i mean, i don't wait for others to treat me like a queen... i'll do it myself.... i might not be perfect, i might not be the prettiest girl in ur eyes, and i might not have a perfect life... but i love myself the way i am... and my value will never decrease even if u can't see my worth... P/s: i'm good at being me

7. Arrogant a.k.a sombong a.k.a lawa I don't smile to strangers... that's creepy.. my "friendly" side do have a boundary... plus, i think object attracts me more than people... even when watching a movie, i'll get attracted more towards the surrounding compare to the storyline.. lol! so, it's not about being arrogant at all.. p/s: if u get what i mean...

8. Hardheaded - If u did something wrong to me doesn't mean i won't talk to u forever even i can perfectly erased someone's existence from my life.. if people own their mistakes & make up for the things they've done... i'll not only forgive them but i'll respect them more... P/s: not many are man enough to admit their mistakes... most people chose to blame others or running away from it... so it's their choice to value their ego more than friendship.... and i'm to blame for the friendship that they throw away? i don't think so..

9. Strong - Being strong doesn't mean i don't cry... i juz don't like to show my weak side in front of others,.. yes, my life sux sometimes but i dont need others sympathy... i dont like feeling pathetic... so whenever i'm down, i choose to distract myself rather than crying over it..

10. Promises - are the word i hate the most in english vocabulary... this word has made a fool of me most of my life... it is officially a banned word in my life... now i understand when my former lect. said... "once a promise is broken, the relationship will be gone forever"

p/s: ngereco

I miss US

| at 9:34 PM

I miss US being together like this

I'm indeed a coward....

When i watch horror movies, i don't have the courage to open my eyes...

If i go to a high place, my legs will shake...

But for me the most scary thing is...

When i can't see u....

Wondering....

| at 6:58 PM

The more i give, the more i have (August 2012 - May 2013)

Labels: None | at 10:42 PM

Our Monthly Timeline :)

Looking back at all of our photos, memories while we're together flashes through my mind.. for each photo contains a memory of its own... U & me have gone through from being awkward to being inseparable from each other even when u're miles away from me... i miss you... i miss being silly with you... i miss everything about you... when i said i love u too much til it scares me, it was not because i didn't have faith in us... i was afraid as i felt like i couldn't act like myself anymore when u're not around... i don't like being that way... that's not right... being selfish for endless attention is not who i am... gosh... i don't even know since when did i became such annoying girlfriend...

I guess i've to hold myself back and keep reminding myself to love sincerely like i used to do b4... love sincerely thus i'll be a lot happier that way.. like what william shakespeare wrote in the legendary Romeo & Juliet "The More I Give To Thee, The More I Have,"

Truth

Labels: None | at 11:46 PM

U might find me to be difficult these days...

I might act different...

I might drown myself with work & stuff....

I might act cold....

I might have nothing to say...

The truth is.... i'm just terribly miserable without u...

But i can't say it since there's nothing we can do about it but to wait~~~

Yet i can't pretend that i'm all bubbly & cheerful like i used to be..

Because deep inside i'm dying to see u...

P/s: setiap nafasku hembuskan namamu ♥♥♥

Estranged

Labels: None | at 3:50 PM

I feel lately we've become estranged...

#dumbfounded

Behind my smiles.....

Labels: None | at 7:17 AM

..........are things that no one understand

Top 10: Signs You're In Love

| at 6:28 PM

*according to askmen.com

Number 10

You've forgotten your ex

More often than not, a breakup is followed by a significant amount of time spent thinking about her and wondering whether or not you guys made the right decision in going your separate ways. Depending on how long the two of you were together, these doubts can resurface again and again.

Ever since you met her , however, the thought of getting back together with your ex is the furthest thing from your mind. Come to think of it, you barely recall what you found so great about your ex in the first place.

Number 9

You can't stop thinking about her

Instead, you are consumed by thoughts of her . She just pops into your head for no apparent reason, and you wonder if she thinks of you half as much as you think of her. You wonder what she's up to and even consider calling her (but refrain from doing so for fear of looking overeager).

But it gets worse. You're out with your friends and you see something in a shop window and think about how much she would like that particular item, or you notice a poster for a show that she would love, but normally wouldn't even have looked twice at it.

If she's the last thing on your mind before you go to sleep and the first thing on your mind when you wake up -- and you've even dreamed of her on a couple of occasions -- then you don't really even need to read on to know if you're in love (but should anyway, just to be sure).

Number 8

You care about her

There is a reason why you don't really want to know too much about the chick you had a one-night stand with: you don't love her. When you're in love with a woman, you want to know all about her: who she is, what she thinks, what makes her laugh. You truly care about her and her feelings.

If you truly love a woman, you feel bad if she had a bad day or is upset about something. You don't try to cheer her up because you have to , but because you can't help it.

Number 7

You find her quirks charming

The fact that she carries her passport with her everywhere she goes -- just in case -- and that, when she's eating, she can't help but construct every forkful, so that it is the perfect blend of ingredients, fills you with an inexplicable feeling of happiness.

She does and says things that make her different, and you like it. You can't quite put your finger on why, but it doesn't even matter. You like her just the way she is.

Number 6

You have great chemistry

You can't be in love with someone that you have no chemistry with. If you and her seem to always be on the same wavelength, and think in similar ways, that's a great sign. If you also generate enough heat to set off a five-alarm fire bell, then she is probably someone that you could fall in love with, if you aren't there already.

Number 5

You don't notice other women as much

Although you can't help noticing a beautiful woman when one walks by, when you're in love, some of them tend to slip under the radar, while others just pale in comparison to her. Furthermore, you don't seem to be flirting half as much as you used to.

You are slowly realizing that she's often the only woman in the room that matters, and, for some reason, that suits you just fine.

Number 4

You love spending time with her

This one is pretty obvious but important nonetheless. You look forward to seeing her, and don't care much about what the two of you will be doing. Lately, just going for a walk with her sounds like the best way you could possibly spend an evening.

Furthermore, when you're not together, you miss her and wish you were.

Number 3

You don't mind compromising sometimes

There was a time when it was your way or the highway, but, with her it's different. Not that she asks you to, but you don't mind missing a night out with the guys to be with her. And you find yourself trying to incorporate her into your plans or altering them to accomodate her.

You also find yourself not putting up a fight when she wants to go to Shakespeare in the Park. Although your friends find this very amusing, you know that deep down, they wish that they had found a love like yours.

Number 2

Other priorities take a backseat

You used to train religiously, but lately, if she's free for dinner, you don't mind missing a workout. Not only that, but your workaholic tendency of bringing home your work on weekends to get ahead seems a bit excessive to you as of late.

Your ever-important "to-do" list seems quite stagnant these days, as being with her always manages to render your other plans and obligations obsolete. What was it that you absolutely had to do by four o'clock again?

Number 1

You start thinking about the future and she's in it

It used to be that the future with a woman meant your date on Saturday night, but, with this woman, the future seems infinite. Not only do you plan to see her this weekend, but you want to see her a year from now as well.

When planning your next vacation, you know you want to spend it with her, and not a random beach bunny you happen to meet while you're there. And when you get an invitation to a wedding in three months from now, you ask her to be your date, without thinking that it's too far away to tell if you'll still be together.

she's the one

If you are currently dating a woman that makes you act in any of the ways mentioned above, then you, my friend, are seriously falling for her. It's time to put away the little black book for a while and enjoy the ride.

p/s: some of the things i find applicable but how come some of it i found too much of a fairy tale? ngaaaaaaaaa.....

7 Monthsary & I Miss You.... a lot

Labels: None | at 10:15 PM

As days go by... i can't help myself missing u so badly... memories filled my head & i feel like drowning in it... Today is the official 7 months of our journey in being together... time surely flew fast but we've came a long way... Both of us didn't see this coming at the beginning.. we said we'll give it a try... take a shot and see how far we can go.. We said we'll get to know each other once again... i guess we love each other even more once we discover the other side of both... the side we never knew as bestie in all these years.... i know in every first stage of any relationship, everything will seem so bright but with u, the future seems even better... and i'm looking forward to it because u & me are just awesome :) ♡♥♡♥♡♥♥♥

p/s: my heart is filled with u

I'm 101% Blessed :)

| at 6:58 PM

"Ku pernah punya cinta.. namun kini ku sedang suka kamu..

Cintaku dulu telah ku buang jauh.. Kini ku ingin kamu....."

(Raffi ahmad, Jangan Bilang Tidak)

Over the years, i've fallen in love... fell out of love.. got confused... been betrayed... ran away from reality, did things i won't be proud of, refusing to face the ugly truth, got swayed and hurt time over time.... lies cut me until i become lost in my way.. holding myself together and struggle to move on... There are tons of things that i wish would have been different... but i've let go of things i couldn't change... all i ever wanted was to be happy but happiness seems too far away at that time... and i used to ask myself, why izzit so hard for me to be happy?

And i know you've gone through the same thing.... well, i think everybody does... people say the past will shaped us for who we are in the future... We learned from all the heartbreaks and the wrong decisions that we've made... There are things that i wish i've done but i didn't and there are things that i wish i didn't do... The past had turn my heart numb... and i was ready to settle with what i already had back then...

but it seems like God has a different plan for me... Moving on was the most hardest part for every one but that was the best decision i've ever made... because one could never be truly happy if their heart still stuck with troubles of the past.... yes, we learned from it and moved on, end of story...

With this numb heart, i found love that i never thought i would able to feel again... the love that could put a smile on my face like the entire day.... Thus, i learned to love again... yes, the road was never this smooth at the beginning, but what we have now is more that what i've ever wanted... I never expected anything when we've just started but it seems that things just happened and without we realized, we've come this far... I feel blessed... thankful... grateful... for i never thought that i finally found the happiness that i've always dreamed for... Now that i've found it, i wanna keep it til the rest of my life.... All the time i feel like i'm drowning in this love.... and i like how it consumes me... Yes, future is uncertain, but this awesome relationship is definitely worth fighting for...

p/s: i'll take care of u for as long as i could :)

Perfect match???

Labels: None | at 8:16 AM

Is there even a perfect match??? i don't think so but closer to perfect, yes.... my friend told be about how accurate the result of the compatibility between her and her soon to be ex-hubby... basically the result said they can be together but not for a long time because soon both will choose to go to a different direction...

their relationship wont work for long unless they are violating the laws of astrology... well, i'm indeed a fan of astrology because i think it's interesting but i never quite a believer... i read it just merely for fun... but after hearing the accuracy of my friend's result, i was tempted to test my own relationship....

i'm a capri girl & he's a virgo guy.... i know both capricorn and virgo posses the same earth element maybe that's why we got along very well as bestfriends for years before... eventhough we had arguments and stopped talking to each other for quite sometime, somehow destiny had brought us back together.....even closer than friends could be.... so i expected our compatibility percentage would be high.... butttttt i never thought that it would be thaaaaaatttt high... i tested and was surprise with 97% compatibility match????

p/s: so i guess miss capricorn has found her close to perfect match :)

KL with L♡ve

Labels: None | at 9:49 PM

We had our official super awkward 1st date in Midvalley KL.. and on the 9 march we were there once again... although we didn't get to do much in 2 days... but i'm still glad that we meet.. coz every moment that we've spent together will become a memory that i'll treasure... i've never been happier in a long time... and things never feel so real like this...

Time surely flew fast esp. when we're together... we've been in this new journey for almost 6 months now and ofcourse we did face several obstacles down the road but despite all that, the road ahead seems more clearer esp. to my once confused mind.... although one of our policy is not to make promises to one another but i have faith in him... i have faith in us... by seeing how we made an effort to make us work is soooo much better than 10 000 promises :)

Rindu itu satu anugerah :)

Labels: Missing you | at 12:14 AM

Tak pernah kurasa begini

Ku menyintaimu sepenuh hatiku

Ternyata hanyalah dirimu

Yang mengerti aku sepenuh hatimu

Ku inginkan selalu terhentinya waktu

Supaya kita terus bersama

Jangan lah kau pergi tinggalkan diriku

Sendiri jauh darimu

Ku perlukan kamu inginmu selalu

Temani jalan hidupku

Ternyata hanyalah dirimu yang amat ku rindu

Ku rindu selalu

Ku inginkan selalu terhentinya waktu

Supaya kita terus bersama

P/s: Pertalian hati mengikat 2 insan.... I miss u hazk!!!!

Every cloud has a silver lining

| at 1:25 AM

There's good in every bad just like there's beauty in every pain... All this while i guess i forgot to see that every cloud has a silver lining.... For all that misfortunes that has happened before, brought better tomorrow.. and how's that? Because yesterday's plans definitely not the life that i wanted for my future... yes, 2012 has been rough but at the same time it brought lifetime memories that wont be forgotten.... rather than saying my life has changed, i prefer to say i made a difference
in it...

1# Sungha Jung live fingerstyle performance (amazing young talent -definitely worth my evening ^^)

2# Trip back home with my besties (to the island we went... ~~well, aside from shopping~~ :p)

3# My Master's convocation ceremony (~~ends of my 2 year's suffering~~~~~~)

4# I cut my hair short after a few years having long hair (Fun to look different after a while....ngeee~~)

5# My 1st X'Mas sleepover at my sis as well as
celebration (AJK Protokol bak kata Carol... :p)

6# I learned how to swim (lessons are still in progress tho :p)

7# Celebrated both new year & my sis ckin's bday at d same time (making one of her wishes came true)

8# Registered myself for gym membership (finally~~~)

9# Attended my 1st international concert in Stadium Merdeka.... BigBang Alive tour... kyaaaa!!!!! (Best moment ever)

10# I found Love (with every ending marks a new beginning....)

So, i guess there u go.... all the new things that i tried & experience thus made a difference in my life... i guess after a neverending melodrama that i've been going on over & over again ~~til the audience got bored to death~~... it's fair enough to share some sunshines after the rain even when the storm was still coming... Well, in the end... life still gives us choices to make even when the odds are against us... moreover, happiness can be found anywhere :)

Waking up from neverland

Labels: None | at 7:53 PM

I owez thought sleeping is a waste of time.... especially during day time... time flew without me doing anything but having a trip to neverland instead.... but it seems like my body needed it for these past few days... the mind has been experiencing dizziness and the body just felt exhausted over nothing.. i wonder is it because i haven't been eating properly these few weeks.... sigh~~~ my fluctuating body weight has put a lot of stress on me... to the extend that it has become my top list on the thing i hate the most in life... ~.~" Even when i know i'm still awesome either way... but still.... sigh~~~~~

2013.... a new beginning?

Labels: None | at 9:44 AM

Morning new year....

Time sure does flew very fast & it will never be enough for one person.... 2012 was a rough year but somehow it gave me a new beginning as well... a new life for me to look forward to... although as for now i don't think i have the strenght to confidently accept 2013's challenges but starting from now... i will slowly fix the changes in my life & gain myself back...

P/s: today felt slightly better than yesterday

Xoxo

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