The Other Side Of Me

Yes... yesterday's evening a colleague came for my help to give motivational talks this morning.... yep... another last minute's task... and i NEVER.... never give any motivational talk ever in my life.. so u can say it's another one of "bidang terjun" again... sigh~~~

Soooo... another first time, first trial... yeah, i accepted the challenge.. i challenged myself this morning... like ususal, i didn't do much thinking about how i would perform..
Instead, i juz gave my best for it
and it was surprisingly fun :)

I'm glad i took the chance.. i learn another thing today :)

i can say i would love to do it again if given the chance...
well, like what people say, u wouldn't know unless u try & give it ur best..

In life, we met different kinds of people... thus every time we fall in love, 

we'll experience different kinds of love... 

so does making comparison of your past and your present is even a fair thing to do?  

Seriously, this thing keeps messing with my mind not because of jealousy.. i'm well aware of the differences... and i'm the one who knows myself better (though there are a person who can read me like a book) i know i'm born with many flaws and of course gifted with many advantages also.. (baby, i'm in a different league) but  to make comparison just to destroy my self esteem is just unacceptable to me... by saying all of those things, how would that makes me feel? how would that makes anyone feel? No one wants to be with a person who thinks other's are better than them...

P/s: i STILL can't brain this..

It's been a while since i've posted anything... i started this blog to share all my beautiful moments but it looks like it's filled with all my heartache moment.. sigh~~ maybe i should change the address to myheartache@blogspot.com instead  

well, these past weeks have been very hectic to me... 

>>Organized a HUGE scale event involving 100 elementary kidssss.... (seriously, KIDSSS)

>>Organizing entrepreneurship course for a group of adults... (yeah, ADULTSSSS)

>>Dealing with external organization that is overly demanding & unprofessional

>>Struggling with tons of paper worksssssss  as it is the procedure for any event

But despite all of these, as an optimist girl who's always look at the bright side of life, i learned a lot of things,,, seriously A LOT... it feels like i'm going through 2 weeks super intensive crash course of event organizing.... moreover, it was my first time for a lot of things... my first time handling kids, my first time giving talk to adults, first time of dealing with external organizations, my first time dealing with procedures... 

Just whenever i'm in distress, a little support would be nice... i need a little strength back there... hmm..  

Despite of all the stress & exhaustion, i'm proud of myself.. i'm proud of the new experience that i've gathered... :)