The Other Side Of Me

The more i give, the more i have (August 2012 - May 2013)

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Looking back at all of our photos, memories while we're together flashes through my mind.. for each photo contains a memory of its own... U & me have gone through from being awkward to being inseparable from each other even when u're miles away from me... i miss you... i miss being silly with you... i miss everything about you... when i said i love u too much til it scares me, it was not because i didn't have faith in us... i was afraid as i felt like i couldn't act like myself anymore when u're not around... i don't like being that way... that's not right... being selfish for endless attention is not who i am... gosh... i don't even know since when did i became such annoying girlfriend...

I guess i've to hold myself back and keep reminding myself to love sincerely like i used to do b4... love sincerely thus i'll be a lot happier that way.. like what william shakespeare wrote in the legendary Romeo & Juliet "The More I Give To Thee, The More I Have,"

Truth

Labels: None | at 11:46 PM

U might find me to be difficult these days...

I might act different...

I might drown myself with work & stuff....

I might act cold....

I might have nothing to say...

The truth is.... i'm just terribly miserable without u...

But i can't say it since there's nothing we can do about it but to wait~~~

Yet i can't pretend that i'm all bubbly & cheerful like i used to be..

Because deep inside i'm dying to see u...

P/s: setiap nafasku hembuskan namamu ♥♥♥

Estranged

Labels: None | at 3:50 PM

I feel lately we've become estranged...

#dumbfounded

Behind my smiles.....

Labels: None | at 7:17 AM

..........are things that no one understand

Top 10: Signs You're In Love

| at 6:28 PM

*according to askmen.com

Number 10

You've forgotten your ex

More often than not, a breakup is followed by a significant amount of time spent thinking about her and wondering whether or not you guys made the right decision in going your separate ways. Depending on how long the two of you were together, these doubts can resurface again and again.

Ever since you met her , however, the thought of getting back together with your ex is the furthest thing from your mind. Come to think of it, you barely recall what you found so great about your ex in the first place.

Number 9

You can't stop thinking about her

Instead, you are consumed by thoughts of her . She just pops into your head for no apparent reason, and you wonder if she thinks of you half as much as you think of her. You wonder what she's up to and even consider calling her (but refrain from doing so for fear of looking overeager).

But it gets worse. You're out with your friends and you see something in a shop window and think about how much she would like that particular item, or you notice a poster for a show that she would love, but normally wouldn't even have looked twice at it.

If she's the last thing on your mind before you go to sleep and the first thing on your mind when you wake up -- and you've even dreamed of her on a couple of occasions -- then you don't really even need to read on to know if you're in love (but should anyway, just to be sure).

Number 8

You care about her

There is a reason why you don't really want to know too much about the chick you had a one-night stand with: you don't love her. When you're in love with a woman, you want to know all about her: who she is, what she thinks, what makes her laugh. You truly care about her and her feelings.

If you truly love a woman, you feel bad if she had a bad day or is upset about something. You don't try to cheer her up because you have to , but because you can't help it.

Number 7

You find her quirks charming

The fact that she carries her passport with her everywhere she goes -- just in case -- and that, when she's eating, she can't help but construct every forkful, so that it is the perfect blend of ingredients, fills you with an inexplicable feeling of happiness.

She does and says things that make her different, and you like it. You can't quite put your finger on why, but it doesn't even matter. You like her just the way she is.

Number 6

You have great chemistry

You can't be in love with someone that you have no chemistry with. If you and her seem to always be on the same wavelength, and think in similar ways, that's a great sign. If you also generate enough heat to set off a five-alarm fire bell, then she is probably someone that you could fall in love with, if you aren't there already.

Number 5

You don't notice other women as much

Although you can't help noticing a beautiful woman when one walks by, when you're in love, some of them tend to slip under the radar, while others just pale in comparison to her. Furthermore, you don't seem to be flirting half as much as you used to.

You are slowly realizing that she's often the only woman in the room that matters, and, for some reason, that suits you just fine.

Number 4

You love spending time with her

This one is pretty obvious but important nonetheless. You look forward to seeing her, and don't care much about what the two of you will be doing. Lately, just going for a walk with her sounds like the best way you could possibly spend an evening.

Furthermore, when you're not together, you miss her and wish you were.

Number 3

You don't mind compromising sometimes

There was a time when it was your way or the highway, but, with her it's different. Not that she asks you to, but you don't mind missing a night out with the guys to be with her. And you find yourself trying to incorporate her into your plans or altering them to accomodate her.

You also find yourself not putting up a fight when she wants to go to Shakespeare in the Park. Although your friends find this very amusing, you know that deep down, they wish that they had found a love like yours.

Number 2

Other priorities take a backseat

You used to train religiously, but lately, if she's free for dinner, you don't mind missing a workout. Not only that, but your workaholic tendency of bringing home your work on weekends to get ahead seems a bit excessive to you as of late.

Your ever-important "to-do" list seems quite stagnant these days, as being with her always manages to render your other plans and obligations obsolete. What was it that you absolutely had to do by four o'clock again?

Number 1

You start thinking about the future and she's in it

It used to be that the future with a woman meant your date on Saturday night, but, with this woman, the future seems infinite. Not only do you plan to see her this weekend, but you want to see her a year from now as well.

When planning your next vacation, you know you want to spend it with her, and not a random beach bunny you happen to meet while you're there. And when you get an invitation to a wedding in three months from now, you ask her to be your date, without thinking that it's too far away to tell if you'll still be together.

she's the one

If you are currently dating a woman that makes you act in any of the ways mentioned above, then you, my friend, are seriously falling for her. It's time to put away the little black book for a while and enjoy the ride.

p/s: some of the things i find applicable but how come some of it i found too much of a fairy tale? ngaaaaaaaaa.....

7 Monthsary & I Miss You.... a lot

Labels: None | at 10:15 PM

As days go by... i can't help myself missing u so badly... memories filled my head & i feel like drowning in it... Today is the official 7 months of our journey in being together... time surely flew fast but we've came a long way... Both of us didn't see this coming at the beginning.. we said we'll give it a try... take a shot and see how far we can go.. We said we'll get to know each other once again... i guess we love each other even more once we discover the other side of both... the side we never knew as bestie in all these years.... i know in every first stage of any relationship, everything will seem so bright but with u, the future seems even better... and i'm looking forward to it because u & me are just awesome :) ♡♥♡♥♡♥♥♥

p/s: my heart is filled with u

I'm 101% Blessed :)

| at 6:58 PM

"Ku pernah punya cinta.. namun kini ku sedang suka kamu..

Cintaku dulu telah ku buang jauh.. Kini ku ingin kamu....."

(Raffi ahmad, Jangan Bilang Tidak)

Over the years, i've fallen in love... fell out of love.. got confused... been betrayed... ran away from reality, did things i won't be proud of, refusing to face the ugly truth, got swayed and hurt time over time.... lies cut me until i become lost in my way.. holding myself together and struggle to move on... There are tons of things that i wish would have been different... but i've let go of things i couldn't change... all i ever wanted was to be happy but happiness seems too far away at that time... and i used to ask myself, why izzit so hard for me to be happy?

And i know you've gone through the same thing.... well, i think everybody does... people say the past will shaped us for who we are in the future... We learned from all the heartbreaks and the wrong decisions that we've made... There are things that i wish i've done but i didn't and there are things that i wish i didn't do... The past had turn my heart numb... and i was ready to settle with what i already had back then...

but it seems like God has a different plan for me... Moving on was the most hardest part for every one but that was the best decision i've ever made... because one could never be truly happy if their heart still stuck with troubles of the past.... yes, we learned from it and moved on, end of story...

With this numb heart, i found love that i never thought i would able to feel again... the love that could put a smile on my face like the entire day.... Thus, i learned to love again... yes, the road was never this smooth at the beginning, but what we have now is more that what i've ever wanted... I never expected anything when we've just started but it seems that things just happened and without we realized, we've come this far... I feel blessed... thankful... grateful... for i never thought that i finally found the happiness that i've always dreamed for... Now that i've found it, i wanna keep it til the rest of my life.... All the time i feel like i'm drowning in this love.... and i like how it consumes me... Yes, future is uncertain, but this awesome relationship is definitely worth fighting for...

p/s: i'll take care of u for as long as i could :)